Implode vs. Explode

Laying in a state of vulnerability, a dark and cold evil came from deep within me. Not being sure if it is deep within me or deep within something that is renting space in me - it left me confused and scared. It was an evil that was so great that actions of violence could not come close to acting out the intensity of the power it seemed to have. Words of disgust only challenged it, as it seemed to throw those words back as frivolous attempts to describe its essence. The only word in a limited vocabulary to name this evil is 'hate'.

How can 'hate' be such a strong feeling that we are supposed to ignore? or not allow? How do we honor the feeling, even in its ugliness, and let it out, but not let it have its way?


Ignoring hate disables us from weeding it out. Once it is honored, we can heal.



And now for some Waka on a much lighter note!

In my absentee presence,
I am here, but gone
For just a day eternally.
lem3

As my mind closes down,

Answers to questions un-asked,

Fall fast to a sleepy night's awake.

lem3




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Feet dance on attic rafters,
Creaking in time,
To songs of youthful memories.
lem3

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Cookies greet the tongue,
And say 'hello there belly'.
Here yum comes.
lem3

Cookies greet the tongue,
And say 'hello there belly',
Full is never had.
lem3

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Tulips tilting one way,
Then another and another,
Blooming in the darkenss,
Making full what seems empty.
lem3

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Sleep well with fine sheets and soft pillows,

Lowering the body onto clouds of luxury linens,

To be suspended by lines of light from the heavens,

A marionette of the soul never needs a pillow.

lem3

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Business men walk stoically to complex offices,

Children watch in admiration with eager plans to follow,

Dogs play silly games with no reslove,
Everyone is home by five for dinner.
lem3

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